Insurance Cards and “See You Again”

I dont like needles so the idea of getting a tattoo is not something I EVER thought I’d do.

But that came later.

First there was one of my hardest days up to that point.

The mail

My car was being repaired and I ordered an Uber to come get me to go pick it up.

While waiting for the Uber I get the mail.

In the mail is something from the insurance company (they send stuff all the time so I didn’t think much of it).

I opened it and it’s new insurance cards… without his name on them…

That broke me.

It wasn’t just a piece of plastic. It was reality printed in ink. It was the world officially acknowledging what my heart still refuses to accept.

The turn I avoided

Now my Uber is here and I’m an emotional wreck.

He starts driving and he takes a right turn out of the neighborhood, something I’ve avoided for over a month, because going that way takes me down the road right past this place where he crashed his car.

I wasn’t ready.

The song

Then as we make the turn out onto the main road a song comes on the radio…

“See You Again”.

This is it, the universe is just punishing me.

That was the only song I found in the only playlist Alex had on his YouTube.

He had a “Sleep” playlist with a violin cover of that song, only that song.

It’s the song we played at his service.

And now here it is on the radio when I’m at my lowest — receiving insurance cards without his name, driving down the last road he was on, by the site for the first time.

A different frame

I texted people about how I was, what was going on…

One message came back: maybe the song came on because that was Alex reaching out to me.

That song brought him comfort and maybe he was trying to do the same for me.

That reframed the way I was thinking — not necessarily how I was feeling.

The repeat

So after getting my car, I played that song on repeat, forcing myself to listen to it, to feel every emotion.

I listened to that song, and only that song in the car for almost a week straight.

Every time I listened there was one line that always stood out…

That bond will never be broken. The love will never get lost.

I realized that was it.

Not just a lyric. A truth.