Before Mallorca: Showing Up
I leave for Mallorca in less than a week, and this race has become much more than a race. It[…]
Two Realities
Every day, it feels like I am living in two realities at the same time. In one, life keeps moving.[…]
Showing Up
Mallorca is getting close, but this post is about more than race prep. It is about grief, love, commitment, and[…]
Maybe Broken: Grief After Losing a Child
After a difficult exchange in our dads support group, I spent the night wrestling with what it really means to[…]
Am I Broken? Grief, Scars, and Life After Losing Alex
After reading emails from our dads support group, I found myself asking a hard question: am I broken? Grief has[…]
Why is it easier to give grace to other grieving parents than ourselves?
In our grieving dads group, we talked about guilt. Listening to other fathers, I could clearly see their love, effort,[…]
One Year Later
A year after losing my son Alex, I found that the day I feared most wasn’t the anniversary itself, but[…]
Where the 20 Should Be
There are a million things I would rather be building for my son than a memorial to place on the[…]
When Joy and Grief Don’t Take Turns
Tonight I came across a reel that described something I’ve felt for a long time but struggled to explain. The[…]
The Morning I Keep Replaying — And the Guilt I Still Carry
There’s a moment I return to over and over.Not because I want to — but because my mind won’t let[…]