I’ll never be ready
A heartfelt reflection on a dream about Alex — a moment of letting go, love, and the desire to walk[…]
After the Finish Line
Reflections on grappling with grief after an endurance race, carrying memories of Alex, and seeking purpose after the finish line.
One More
A heartfelt reflection on the persistent longing for one more moment with a lost loved one, exploring grief and the[…]
The Anger Inside Grief
A personal exploration of grief’s complexity, revealing emotions like anger and guilt alongside sadness and love after a profound loss.
Letting the Dressers Go
A heartfelt account of coming to terms with grief through the act of letting go of Alex’s dressers, honoring memories[…]
The Shield Isn’t Perfect — And That’s Why I Love It
Tuesday marks one year since the worst day of my life. It’s an anniversary I never wanted. A date I[…]
Sharing a Birthday
As if Alex’s birthday arriving on Monday wasn’t already heavy enough, it also happens to be his grandmom’s birthday. That[…]
Jason Made Me a Dad Again
I write about Alex often on here. His loss has undoubtedly changed me forever. It changed how I see the[…]
When a Memory Brings Him Back — and Takes Him Away Again
I came across a video from December 2012 of Alex and Jason playing in the kitchen. They were just being[…]
Holding Gratitude and Grief at the Same Time
On Tuesday night, we ordered Chinese food for dinner. Nothing fancy—just one of those simple, comforting meals you go to[…]