Jason Made Me a Dad Again
I write about Alex often on here. His loss has undoubtedly changed me forever. It changed how I see the[…]
Alex: My Everglow
Mondays have always been hard for me. Not because the weekend ends or because work begins again—but because Monday is[…]
Winter Training Is Where Spring Is Earned
Training in the winter isn’t particularly fun. There’s no romantic version of it, no highlight reel that makes it feel[…]
I Will Never Forgive 2025
This post confronts the complex emotions of grief and loss experienced in 2025—the year that changed everything and marked the[…]
The Rays of Light: Finding Hope While Living With Grief
Jeremy just happened to be in the area on Christmas Eve. He reached out to see if he could stop[…]
My First Christmas Without Alex
I was up early on Christmas morning—not because of excitement, but because of uncertainty. I didn’t know how the day[…]
When a Memory Brings Him Back — and Takes Him Away Again
I came across a video from December 2012 of Alex and Jason playing in the kitchen. They were just being[…]
The Conflict of Holding Christmas
I came across an Instagram reel the other day that made me stop and think. “There is a special kind[…]
Holding Gratitude and Grief at the Same Time
On Tuesday night, we ordered Chinese food for dinner. Nothing fancy—just one of those simple, comforting meals you go to[…]
Holiday Grief and Healing: Holding Space for Joy After Loss
This season has become an unexpected lesson in holiday grief and healing, as I try to make the holidays feel[…]