Showing Up
Mallorca is getting close, but this post is about more than race prep. It is about grief, love, commitment, and[…]
Maybe Broken: Grief After Losing a Child
After a difficult exchange in our dads support group, I spent the night wrestling with what it really means to[…]
Am I Broken? Grief, Scars, and Life After Losing Alex
After reading emails from our dads support group, I found myself asking a hard question: am I broken? Grief has[…]
When Even a Loose Bolt Feels Like Failure
This has been a hard week. Ever since our dads support group last week, and especially after talking about guilt,[…]
Why is it easier to give grace to other grieving parents than ourselves?
In our grieving dads group, we talked about guilt. Listening to other fathers, I could clearly see their love, effort,[…]
When “Not Enough” Has Nothing to Do With Effort
Training for an IRONMAN was supposed to be about discipline, endurance, and finishing what I started. But somewhere along the[…]
The Guilt of Missed Training and the Weight of Grief
With IRONMAN 70.3 Mallorca less than eight weeks away, I found myself carrying both race anxiety and the weight of[…]
One Year Later
A year after losing my son Alex, I found that the day I feared most wasn’t the anniversary itself, but[…]
Facing the First Monday in March
I’m sitting on my couch staring out into the backyard, watching the birds move from feeder to feeder without a[…]
The Shield Isn’t Perfect — And That’s Why I Love It
Tuesday marks one year since the worst day of my life. It’s an anniversary I never wanted. A date I[…]