Maybe Broken: Grief After Losing a Child
After a difficult exchange in our dads support group, I spent the night wrestling with what it really means to[…]
Am I Broken? Grief, Scars, and Life After Losing Alex
After reading emails from our dads support group, I found myself asking a hard question: am I broken? Grief has[…]
Why is it easier to give grace to other grieving parents than ourselves?
In our grieving dads group, we talked about guilt. Listening to other fathers, I could clearly see their love, effort,[…]
When “Not Enough” Has Nothing to Do With Effort
Training for an IRONMAN was supposed to be about discipline, endurance, and finishing what I started. But somewhere along the[…]
The Guilt of Missed Training and the Weight of Grief
With IRONMAN 70.3 Mallorca less than eight weeks away, I found myself carrying both race anxiety and the weight of[…]
One Year Later
A year after losing my son Alex, I found that the day I feared most wasn’t the anniversary itself, but[…]
Where the 20 Should Be
There are a million things I would rather be building for my son than a memorial to place on the[…]
When Joy and Grief Don’t Take Turns
Tonight I came across a reel that described something I’ve felt for a long time but struggled to explain. The[…]
The Morning I Keep Replaying — And the Guilt I Still Carry
There’s a moment I return to over and over.Not because I want to — but because my mind won’t let[…]
When Grief Shows Up Unannounced
Here I am tonight — like so many other nights.Tired. Trying to go to bed. And like every night, my[…]