The Morning I Keep Replaying — And the Guilt I Still Carry
There’s a moment I return to over and over.Not because I want to — but because my mind won’t let[…]
When Grief Shows Up Unannounced
Here I am tonight — like so many other nights.Tired. Trying to go to bed. And like every night, my[…]
Listening for His Voice – Grief, Signs, and Trusting Love
This post is a reflection that follows The Day My Grief Answered Back—a continuation of what it means to listen,[…]
Sharing a Birthday
As if Alex’s birthday arriving on Monday wasn’t already heavy enough, it also happens to be his grandmom’s birthday. That[…]
Alex: My Everglow
Mondays have always been hard for me. Not because the weekend ends or because work begins again—but because Monday is[…]
I Will Never Forgive 2025
This post confronts the complex emotions of grief and loss experienced in 2025—the year that changed everything and marked the[…]
The Rays of Light: Finding Hope While Living With Grief
Jeremy just happened to be in the area on Christmas Eve. He reached out to see if he could stop[…]
My First Christmas Without Alex
I was up early on Christmas morning—not because of excitement, but because of uncertainty. I didn’t know how the day[…]
When a Memory Brings Him Back — and Takes Him Away Again
I came across a video from December 2012 of Alex and Jason playing in the kitchen. They were just being[…]
Holding Gratitude and Grief at the Same Time
On Tuesday night, we ordered Chinese food for dinner. Nothing fancy—just one of those simple, comforting meals you go to[…]