Posts about personal reflection

I am freaking out inside

In the days before my Ironman race in Mallorca, I’m navigating stress, unexpected challenges, and the calm moments that remind[…]

The Trip Becomes Real

Reflecting on the emotional and logistical preparation before a significant trip that turned hopes and training into reality.

When Even a Loose Bolt Feels Like Failure

This post explores how grief and guilt can amplify small setbacks into feelings of failure, and the ongoing journey to[…]

Facing the First Monday in March

A personal reflection on facing the first Monday in March, a day etched in memory and grief, honoring a son's[…]

The Shield Isn’t Perfect — And That’s Why I Love It

Tuesday marks one year since the worst day of my life. It’s an anniversary I never wanted. A date I[…]

The Songs That Take Me Back

A nighttime reflection on how certain songs—a teenage love anthem and a rainy outdoor concert—transport me to meaningful moments with[…]

The conflict of holding Christmas

The Conflict of Holding Christmas

I came across an Instagram reel the other day that made me stop and think. “There is a special kind[…]

Gratitude and grief

Holding Gratitude and Grief at the Same Time

On Tuesday night, we ordered Chinese food for dinner. Nothing fancy—just one of those simple, comforting meals you go to[…]

The Last Day in the Old House

An honest, emotional account of the final moments in a beloved family home, grappling with loss and the bittersweet hope[…]