The Trip Becomes Real
Reflecting on the emotional and logistical preparation before a significant trip that turned hopes and training into reality.
Before Mallorca: Showing Up
I leave for Mallorca in less than a week, and this race has become much more than a race. It[…]
Two Realities
Every day, it feels like I am living in two realities at the same time. In one, life keeps moving.[…]
Showing Up
Mallorca is getting close, but this post is about more than race prep. It is about grief, love, commitment, and[…]
Maybe Broken: Grief After Losing a Child
After a difficult exchange in our dads support group, I spent the night wrestling with what it really means to[…]
Am I Broken? Grief, Scars, and Life After Losing Alex
After reading emails from our dads support group, I found myself asking a hard question: am I broken? Grief has[…]
When Even a Loose Bolt Feels Like Failure
This post explores how grief and guilt can amplify small setbacks into feelings of failure, and the ongoing journey to[…]
Why is it easier to give grace to other grieving parents than ourselves?
In our grieving dads group, we talked about guilt. Listening to other fathers, I could clearly see their love, effort,[…]
When “Not Enough” Has Nothing to Do With Effort
Training for an IRONMAN was supposed to be about discipline, endurance, and finishing what I started. But somewhere along the[…]
The Guilt of Missed Training and the Weight of Grief
With IRONMAN 70.3 Mallorca less than eight weeks away, I found myself carrying both race anxiety and the weight of[…]