Am I Broken? Grief, Scars, and Life After Losing Alex
After reading emails from our dads support group, I found myself asking a hard question: am I broken? Grief has[…]
When Even a Loose Bolt Feels Like Failure
This post explores how grief and guilt can amplify small setbacks into feelings of failure, and the ongoing journey to[…]
Why is it easier to give grace to other grieving parents than ourselves?
In our grieving dads group, we talked about guilt. Listening to other fathers, I could clearly see their love, effort,[…]
When “Not Enough” Has Nothing to Do With Effort
Training for an IRONMAN was supposed to be about discipline, endurance, and finishing what I started. But somewhere along the[…]
The Guilt of Missed Training and the Weight of Grief
With IRONMAN 70.3 Mallorca less than eight weeks away, I found myself carrying both race anxiety and the weight of[…]
One Year Later
A year after losing my son Alex, I found that the day I feared most wasn’t the anniversary itself, but[…]
Facing the First Monday in March
A personal reflection on facing the first Monday in March, a day etched in memory and grief, honoring a son's[…]
The Shield Isn’t Perfect — And That’s Why I Love It
Tuesday marks one year since the worst day of my life. It’s an anniversary I never wanted. A date I[…]
The Songs That Take Me Back
A nighttime reflection on how certain songs—a teenage love anthem and a rainy outdoor concert—transport me to meaningful moments with[…]
The Moments I Keep Replaying
It’s the middle of the night again. The house is quiet. Everyone is asleep. And as soon as my head[…]