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Listening for His Voice – Grief, Signs, and Trusting Love

This post is a reflection that follows The Day My Grief Answered Back—a continuation of what it means to listen,[…]

Sharing a Birthday

As if Alex’s birthday arriving on Monday wasn’t already heavy enough, it also happens to be his grandmom’s birthday. That[…]

Jason Made Me a Dad Again

I write about Alex often on here. His loss has undoubtedly changed me forever. It changed how I see the[…]

Alex: My Everglow

Mondays have always been hard for me. Not because the weekend ends or because work begins again—but because Monday is[…]

Winter Training Is Where Spring Is Earned

Training in the winter isn’t particularly fun. There’s no romantic version of it, no highlight reel that makes it feel[…]

I Will Never Forgive 2025

I’ve seen a lot of year-end posts that talk about growth, gratitude, and lessons learned. This isn’t one of those.[…]

The Rays of Light: Finding Hope While Living With Grief

Jeremy just happened to be in the area on Christmas Eve. He reached out to see if he could stop[…]

My First Christmas Without Alex

I was up early on Christmas morning—not because of excitement, but because of uncertainty. I didn’t know how the day[…]

When a Memory Brings Him Back — and Takes Him Away Again

I came across a video from December 2012 of Alex and Jason playing in the kitchen. They were just being[…]

The conflict of holding Christmas

The Conflict of Holding Christmas

I came across an Instagram reel the other day that made me stop and think. “There is a special kind[…]